Tuesday, February 24, 2004
Should have seen just what was there, and not just some holy light
this week has been hell so far. Monday i got in trouble by my teacher so she called my mom and told her shit and now im grounded for like ever. im not even suppose to be on here but my moms not home so i got a bobby pin in picked my way in. im so sick of everyones bull shit and especially teachers. mrs dugan and my mom made me appoligize to mrs mcewen today which is bull shit but i did it anyways. im ready to get out of here. god damn everyone and there fucken mom has one of these damn blog drives now. fuck you all im sick and tired off everyone.. and brooke went out and got her hair done like me. she copys every damn thing i do... you know what, it gets old. i know im cussing like crazy on here but if you cant handle it then dont read it. this journal is for me.. and not for everyone to get offended by it. so right now im really pissed and i rather drown 10,000 times. and if you were wondering no, im not on my damn period.
You couldn't be that man I adore. You don't seem to know -seem to care- what your heart is for.
<3333333
RENEE
Posted at 08:12 pm by me
Sunday, February 22, 2004
entertain the hope that some how youll escape me
Posted at 06:34 pm by me
Saturday, February 21, 2004
pissed
This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
and i can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant
-Something Corporate
so i just told my mom i hated her... because shes so freaken annoying shes always up in my business and i just want to be left alone thats it. she doesnt even trust me anymore thats why i hate her. shes always asking me gay questions and wonders why i dont talk to her anymore... gee i wonder.i know that shes "caring" but damn lay off. asking me if i do drugs and if im gonna commit suicide and why i hate the world. im perfectly fine right now thank you very much. and it really pisses me off when she sits here and tells me when she gets home we can go get jasmine but no she got home later then she thought she would so we cant now fuck that shit.
buh bye
Posted at 09:59 pm by me
Thursday, February 19, 2004
you're so worth the fight
Nothing really happened today other then a fight. I feel like i have to choose friends over friends and I hate that. I wish we could all be just one happy family but thats not how it works. Always some kinda drama going on at "hms". I dont want to choose..and I know I dont half too, but thats what it feels like. or it feels like im ditchin or leaving someone out...
The stars at night are big and bright
Deep in your eyes, Miss Vincent
You told me once I made you smile
But we both know damn well I didn't
I'm not much of a jester, but I'd test poisoned food for you
Your majesty, you're royal blue
I'm royalty, my king of pain
<3 me 4 me
Posted at 05:37 pm by me
Tuesday, February 17, 2004
wishful thinker with the worst intentions
so today in art class this girl called me an idiot because she asked me if i believed in god and i was like uh..yeah.. and she was like then your an idiot. I wonder about people sometimes...i kinda wanted to pull out her hair because shes so fucken weird. she thinks shes a witch too like the damn charm sisters or something..wtf?! i dont know i guess everyone has there own opinions and thoughts and im sure people dont always agree with me too.... so ill just shut up
yeah i went home with jasmine and chantele today.. and our project blows.. i feel an F coming on..... uh oh
the sun was up for far too long today. and i can't see straight, but the two of you look awfully pretty.
<3333333 ooo-neyney
Posted at 09:08 pm by me
Saturday, February 14, 2004
im about to give you away for someone else to take
lastnight kayla and i went to Panchos and ate and then we went to K-mart and thats pretty much it i bought blow pops there....ummy.... then i really didnt do anything exciting today because its Valentines Day and i hate it. its just another halmark holiday...mikala sent me pictures of me and her...and i look ucky but thats okay i hate pictures of myself im not photogynic at all.. i dont even know how to spell that word haha
-if i could move just one finger nail to scratch your name on the back of my hand so i would never forget you again
i wanna go shopping tomorrow.....mmmm
Posted at 11:52 pm by me
Friday, February 13, 2004
as you w e r e
<<pretty....
|+|In the end PeterPan pulled off Tinkerbell's wings so she could never leave..Sometimes love is just another way to bleed|+|
Posted at 05:15 pm by me
Wednesday, February 11, 2004
have you ever tried to step in my shoes.
uhmm this weekend me and kayla are going out to eat together and then good will! im sure the waiter person will think were dykes or something but thats okay. because were not... haha but everyone liked my hair so im not gonna worry about it anymore.. haha kayla dressed funny today she wore this like blue shirt and i bright pink tank top under it and we were lookin for our W.W.J.D bracelets HAHA.
Posted at 09:14 pm by me
Tuesday, February 10, 2004
miracle grow?
so i got my hair done today... and all and i was really excited and then I got it done..and im not so sure what i think about it. i was about to break down and cry but then i thought it would be gay of me to cry over.. my hair... which means a lot to me but thats not the point.. i just want to be different then everyone else haha o well i like all the color b/c its brown and blonde now.. i just dont know about the length my sister said "she wants my hair" but-i dont know you'll just have to see it. i think im happy with it. quit confused though..... hair is gay!!!
so take these two words
and do with them what you would like
it's a dream you had, drove me mad
just your time, just my fucking life
and that's my life
over and over again
just my fucking life
it might seem meaningless to you
but it means everything to me
and I'm fucked without you
-alkaline trio
Posted at 10:14 pm by me
Monday, February 09, 2004
this is what it sounds like when doves cry
Im sitting here talking to kayla on the phone but were not really talking haha. But ne ways im gonna tell you about her icky protien bars. Kayla eats yucky brown crap tasting protien bars everyday and there fattning too even though protiens good for you...YuCkY... but ne ways ... i dunno what else to say...ummmm........
kayla just wrote a poem for me.. here it goes.
Roses are Red
Violets are Blue
But ive got better things to do then write a stupid poem about you!
HAHAHAHHAHA
:A true friend takes you as you are and leaves you better then they found you
Posted at 05:47 pm by me
